So this is what I've been thinking about.....

Since my last blog, alot has happened I know that I need to write more of it down. I AM IN AWE OF WHAT GOD IS DOING IN MY LIFE & IN THE LIVES OF MY BROTHERS & SISTAS IN CHRIST!!! I don't know how to express it anymore clearly. I'm here to be used by the God of Creation to LOVE, ACT, SERVE, and SHARE HIS GOSPEL! So, you may be acting yourself with is up with this girl, well friends I've discovered more within this new year of 2009 that there is true FREEDOM when you surrender completely to the Lord. I have struggled for decades of trying to figure out who I was more so struggling with an identity in Christ and not in myself. Let me tell you has been an ongoing spiritual battle, but as we completed an amazing bible study in my small group "Discerning the Voice of God" by Priscilla Shirer, I was beginning to hear from the Holy Spirit and as I listened He was saying that I needed to change. My heart was convicted, but in the best way, because it has drawn me closer to HIM! As I always say I'm NOT perfect and have it all figured out with my relationship with the Lord, but friends I'm at a place where I WANT TO KNOW MORE OF CHRIST and to develop an intimate relationship with Him. I use to play being spiritual back in high school when I went to a small Christian school from 7th grade to 12 grade and it had it's good moments , but there was a lot of negatives that came out of it. Yes, legalism was evident and I'm going to as it, and take responsibility for it that I was a hypocrite back in high school. I'm not going to call out others who I attended Christian Central Academy with, but I believe I became serious after attending there and going through some major life events, where I couldn't play church and really needed to be broken before the Lord with all my junk. My heart has changed tremendously from 1993 to now. Going to Syracuse University I was thrown into the real world, which I could now longer be sheltered by my cookie-cutter suburbia and happy go lucky mentality, which entailed a lot of fakeness. I was meeting people from all cultures, religions, those trying to figure out their sexuality dealing with some crazy stuff. These were people who lived their lives and a lot of them were without Christ's saving grace and love, but they embraced and loved me more then some of those those who I went to high school with. It became clear and with having a lot of time to witness some craziness, God became REAL in my life. I stopped playing church and living a double life, and I surrendered my life to Him! Wholeheartedly. It's amazing what He teaches you when you are so vulnerable and broken! So this is what I've been thinking about. There is more, believe me and I'm willing to share it with whoever wants to hear it.
Tressa :)